today my ma sent a picture of her and her office mates winning lip sync battle. she uses an emo and gothic-like attire and I asked her, "mum, why did you dress like Evanescence?" she laughed and said, "I sang a song by My Chemical Romance! It has to be dark, don't you think?"
I smiled and replied, "yes." she sent me other three pictures. she laughed in every single picture. she seems so carefree. she looks pretty. she sent me other lengthy messages, so insistent that I catch every details of her performance: the jury's comments, the audience's reactions, the praise she received from her team.
I smiled and replied, "I'm glad if you are happy." because I am; my ma deserves the world but the world is sometimes very hard to her. I imagine she faces a different reality when she goes home, facing another round of harsh words and shallow commentaries by a man i should call 'father'. so, I'm glad if her office offers her another reality where she is beloved, and cherished, and appreciated, and respected. a reality that should've present everywhere she goes. a reality where she does not have to get a mistreatment just because an immature man cannot manifest his ego.
how could someone hurt a person who love them so much? how could someone do not fear of feel guilty when they inflict a pain on a person who take care of them so gently?
i love my ma, but she teaches me that I should find someone who will try hard and harder and harder and harder to give me the love that I deserve.
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