name

I am the biggest one,

My first step began to walk from the top of the mountain,

but I heard one word that makes my body bow down

("Remember to hold your third name.")

I fell, but I did raise

My soul relinquished a spark

a spark, which reminds me to only speak words of grace

("The second name, it will be your life purpose.")

I move, solemnly with my slowest tread

Perhaps i would not reach my destination as fast as the other

But i didn't care, someone told me to ignore the greed

("Be a lion, it is the essence of your third name.")

And finally,

After long journey and hard pathway,

Forgetful people and fatiguing moments,

I am the sun who will always lead you to the dusk

Because I can be big but I'll never let myself to be huge

Because I can shine but I'll only spark it through my way

Because I can move as fast as lion, but a lion never snoop in hurry steps.

Because I was born in the beginning of the day,

I am the sun who will always lead you to the dusk.

(And when you call me, 

you will always remind me of how beautiful my soul is. thankyou)

- - -

I remember when I asked my Mom what is the meaning of my full name.

She only brought me smile and answer me with one brief sentence.

"If you feel curious about it, just find your true name. One thing that I know is you will shine as big as your name."

And three days ago, a revelation came to me in the middle of the class and told me:
"Your name will be your purpose of life. You will be the sun who rise in the beginning of the day, glowing big and pouring earth by your affection, move slowly and giving every creature your warmth."

gusti: the biggest one, nur: light, asla: graceful, shabia: forenoon, bia: beautiful.